By Laurelle Gaia
It is with the help of the distant healing Reiki symbol (HNSHZN), I am able to connect back in time to an experience that proved to be one of my most powerful personal healings. When I review the experience, it feels like a different life time rather than simply an earlier chapter of this life.
During a time, which seems to be an ancient whisper within my consciousness, I was in my 30s, a devoted wife and mother, and a self-employed corporate business woman.
I awoke early in one morning and realized that I was dreading the day ahead. I was feeling sluggish, and was avoiding even the thought of rising early and experiencing quiet moments before my family was awake. Those quiet moments had been so important to me; I was able to practice yoga, meditate and enjoy a quiet cup of tea. However, on this morning, I just wanted to close my eyes and pretend the world had disappeared.
I felt as though I had become a “workaholic/momaholic” who lived by mine and other’s “expectations” of what a good mother, wife and business person should be.
On that morning I forced myself to get out of bed, and began the routine of waking the family, insuring everyone had clean clothes, a healthy breakfast, homework and everything they needed to move through their day. Then off I went to my computer graphic business, to tend to project deadlines, staff, clients, and accountants. I was sitting at my desk, and began to stand up to retrieve a file from a cabinet across the room. To my dismay, my legs collapsed under me. I could not feel my feet or my legs. I was paralyzed from the waist down!
Failing to find anything physically wrong with me, I was diagnosed with what the doctors eventually labeled “clinical depression.”
As I ponder on those moments, I realize that my body was reflecting the “numbness” I had been feeling in relation to my life. Without realizing it, I had become emotionally “paralyzed”, which then led to a physical shut down.
I found myself in a difficult situation, when I learned that I was allergic to the many different types of anti-depressants the doctor prescribed.
Fortunately, approximately two months prior to the diagnosis, I had become a Reiki practitioner. Unfortunately, I had not been practicing with my new found Reiki tools. My original Reiki training was very minimal. However, I did recall the instructor say that Reiki has been known to assist in the healing of depression, but we had not been taught how to apply it. I was feeling desperate so I worked with some of the Reiki tools that I did learn.
Reiki is a method that aids the body in releasing stress and tension by facilitating deep relaxation. Because of this, Reiki promotes self-awareness, healing, wellness and for some profound spiritual growth.
The American Institute of Stress estimates that 75%-95% of all visits to doctors are the results of reaction to stress. The effects of unreleased stress range from minor aches to major health concerns, such as heart disease, cancer, digestive disorders, respiratory and skin problems.
Stress can also activate our fears and cause our life force energy to diminish. When this happens we weaken our ability to respond to fear appropriately and to transform it.
As I gave myself Reiki treatments, I started to relax a little. I could experience “the moment” without worrying about the next moment. I gradually began to realize I had developed unhealthy thought patterns, habits and emotional responses. I was not eating properly, had neglected yoga, felt separated from myself, and from spirituality. I often felt that I was “not good enough” in many areas of my life. To compensate for feeling unworthy, I had convinced myself that I had to hold everything and everyone else “together”.
The Reiki healing process I used was very simple;
Every morning upon rising, and every night before drifting off to sleep I activated the Reiki. During each session I would find myself deeply inhaling the energy of Reiki, and upon each exhale, tension released. I quickly realized that Reiki blended effortlessly with the breathwork. My mantra became, “the deeper the breathing, the deeper the healing”. I eventually developed a guided visualization/breathwork CD and mp3 which many find to be helpful with Reiki in such situations. Click here for more information on “Breath of Light“. Most importantly I was becoming aware of my thoughts, feelings and actions that contributed to blocking me from my true self. It was as if my spirit had become imprisoned by my attempts to please, or care for everyone and everything else in my life. I also became aware of choices I had made which were out of alignment with my true self.
Awareness was the key.
As I became aware of each issue or choice, which had been depressing my spirit, I had the opportunity to change.
Sometimes the choice was to simply change a thought process, or a behavior. Sometimes the choice was to change the way I perceived past circumstances, or to find the lesson within each experience. As each new issue came into my awareness, I made the conscious choice to change whatever needed to shift. Healing happens when we choose to change the cause.
With each “session” I grew lighter and as I grew lighter I began to free my spirit. I was remembering who I Am. As a result I began to respond to life circumstances in more loving and peaceful ways. In a very short time the paralysis began to leave my body, and I was functioning in healthier ways. It was 25 years ago that all the symptoms of depression healed, and they have never returned.
Over these many years I have faced a lot of challenges, all of which could have triggered old behaviors. However instead, I have used Reiki to connect with my true self and to help me respond in healthier ways. Every day I try to make choices that help me remain free to be myself. When we are able to experience our true spirit we are free to fulfill our purpose in life.
Although when I began with Reiki it was considered unusual; today it is being practiced in hospitals, chiropractic offices, hospices, and healing centers. There are millions of Reiki practitioners around the world. People suffering from minor to serious to chronic health conditions are being helped by Reiki every day.
For the past 23 years, I have shared my love of Reiki, spirituality and complementary methods of healing in classes and sessions. As an ICRT Licensed Professional Reiki Master Teacher, I have traveled around the world teaching others about the power, and simplicity of Reiki. My husband and I operate Peace Place the Reiki Center of Sedona, Arizona, where we offer monthly classes in Usui Reiki, Usui|Holy Fire Reiki, Holy Fire Karuna Reiki Mastery, Crystal Healing, Sound Healing and Reiki Healing Drumming. We also co-facilitate the Annual International Reiki Retreat www.ReikiRetreat.com in Lake George, New York. This beautiful event brings Reiki practitioners from around the world together in celebration.
I hope this article is helpful to you or someone you know. Whether you experience illness or not, working with Reiki can help you be true to yourself, free to accomplish your Divine purpose and reconnect with the wonder and magic of life.
Laurelle Gaia is the Director of Licensed Professional Reiki Master Teacher Training, for the International Center for Reiki Training (ICRT). She can be reached via her websites www.ReikiClasses.com or www.InfiniteLight.com copyright 2014 A version of this article was originally written for simplyhappy.me in January of 2014. Published by simplyhappy.me with permission