Laurelle Gaia

I  will be forever grateful to Reiki for many things especially for helping after I had a stroke.

I realize now that I use to focus on curing illnesses but did not realize that an illness can actually be a part of our true healing.  What is a true healing? A true healing is coming into harmony with all parts of who we are and accepting who we  are at  any moment as exactly perfect.  A true healing is a process without an end.  In a true healing we feel complete just by being our true self. A true healing is not a goal but it is a process on our path. At least that is how I perceive healing today.

Now granted when the doctors said I had a 2% chance of survival, simply surviving was an intention. When I could not walk or talk, doing either felt like a goal but both were just  a part of the healing process.  At times I grow impatient with the process, it definitely feels like there is a timing greater than my own that is in charge of my life. But I realize having more patience with the process is part of my healing too.

I also FEEL gratitude to the creator for this continued life and it’s many blessings.

Things that were nice concepts feel like realities now. I.e. Gratitude I feel gratitude in a whole different way now. When I use to THINK of gratitude in the past , now I FEEL gratitude in the very cells of my being. I use to THINK of the physical, mental and spiritual bodies. Now I know that my physical body is working to grow stronger and I have really met my mental and spiritual bodies too.  My spiritual body houses my attitude.  I believe that Reiki is living in my spiritual body too.  I also feel that there is one large spiritual body made up of Reiki and spiritual practitioner ‘s spiritual bodies worldwide.  I feel that may be the energy that is affected by the distant Reiki energy that we channel.

I believe that by having a positive attitude through this process has been very powerful.  I thank Reiki for that. I thank Holy Fire for finding what I will need before I know I will need it. I thank my husband for  his strength and for being by my side every step of the way. I thank the medical and therapy teams for their work and their part in this process too.

I am also grateful for and to the Reiki family for their many prayers and for the energy that is

channeled on my behalf.  It is through team work that real  blessings manifest.

My empathy lives in my emotional body and I believe it always has. I have always easily teared up when something moved me emotionally and now that quality is very active.  I find it amusing that doctors  consider that a “symptom’ of my recovery. To me FEELING is a blessing rather than a symptom of something being out of balance.  They offered me a prescription to relieve my feeling. ‘No thanks” was my  reply.

As my memory improves, I am learning about the mental energy and the actual brain too. Before the stroke, I took my brain for granted a little bit. I did not realize how many functions it was in charge of. Maybe I never thought about how important it was.  The learning process never seems to die either there is always something new to learn.  After practicing Reiki for nearly 30 years, I thought I knew Reiki, but then Holy Fire introduced itself to us. My experiences with holy fire energy are teaching me just how much more I have to learn.

I thank Usui Sensei for acknowledging the 21 day process of change. I find it intriguing that I was in a coma for 3 weeks too. My hope and intention is that  my conscious mind will house my memory of what I am meant to remember from those days and that I can pass that information on too.